Well it's been a really tough week at work... Obviously I'm not going to go into any great detail; suffice to say that my role is changing very soon and these past few days have been a combination of trepidation, guarded excitement and tiredness. Yesterday, I was hoping for a nice short day to round off a long week... the "short" day still lasted nine hours.
I've been waking ridiculously early after interrupted sleep and that is not exactly ideal preparation for an intense day at work. That said, it's all gone well so far and I'm now starting to really look forward to the new task that I'm about to face..
It's been an unsettling time... that I can't deny. But that affects Elaine too and last night, we had a really positive conversation (actually it was more of a lecture) about concentrating on "me", "us" and doing the best job that I can do and not worrying about what I can't control. Of course it will be hard to leave behind the staff I've worked closely with, but that's the very nature of change and Elaine was absolutely right to have her say... in fact I'm really glad she did.
Around this time six years ago, Elaine and I went through the hardest time imagineable as we waited for the chance to spend the rest of our lives together. I was a bit of an emotional wreck, but found the strength to fight... because Elaine was... and always will be worth fighting for. We may never know exactly what the future has in store... just so long as I have Elaine by my side, then I know things will always work out fine... Love you darling xxxxx
All my own work... almost.