Five years ago this very day, I packed all my worldly belongings into my Vauxhall Corsa, locked the door to the room in a shared house in Gateshead that I’d called “home” for the last time and headed down the A19 to start a new life with Elaine.
The moment I switched on the engine and pulled out onto Durham Road signalled the end of the darkest period of my life. I’d walked away from a marriage that was a sham; overwhelmed with guilt about things I had known nothing about. I had become ill with worry and honestly had no idea what the future held in store.
I fully accept that leaving was a selfish act; my younger daughter was still at home and many will argue that I should have stayed for her sake irrespective of the circumstances. I lost an awful lot of so-called “friends”... mainly because I refused to give my version of events and was judged on a one-sided “story” that conveniently missed out all the facts that would have undeniably led people to a different conclusion. The true friends (there weren’t many but they know who they are) stood by me and I will be forever grateful because, believe me, every single day was an ordeal...
And then Elaine came into my life...
I was 42... “getting on a bit” for a fresh start I suppose, but fate had given me one last chance for some happiness... it was a chance I hadn’t expected, but I honestly felt I deserved and there was no way I wasn’t going to venture south to see if the contentment, friendship, laughter and love that I craved were waiting for me.
Words will never convey the strength it needed for us to be together... living fifty miles apart was the tip of the relationship iceberg, but we both shared the (some might say) “romantic” belief that we were destined to share our lives... however difficult the reality might be. And it certainly hasn’t always been easy, but worthwhile..?
Oh yes (and that wasn’t meant to sound like the Churchill dog...)...
So much of the rest of my life has fallen into place because of Elaine; I never forget just what it took to be with someone so truly special. I am grateful for every day we spend together and look forward to seeing what the future holds and sharing it with her...
Thank you for everything darling xxx
All my own work... almost.